Something different...
A letter to Victor
Dear little boy,
My sweet little love, I can't even describe my anticipation to meet you. It brings tears of joy to my eyes just dreaming about you. I imagine your brave entry into this world as so celebrated, I can't possibly count every heart waiting to love you; but mostly my heart. It flutters at the thought of holding you in my arms, nourishing you, and just touching your little body in sheer amazement, that you will be here in front of me. It astonishes me that I will have a son, have created a life with my own body, and that you were made from the love that your father and I share so deeply. We imagine you look like your father, I can see that you already have his lips and his nose; and I'm so glad because they are the features that I love the most. Daddy can't wait to teach you how to swing a bat, neither can your Nonno who taught your daddy to be the all star baseball player that he was throughout his whole life, but that is way down the line. I hope all the best things for you, I wish on every star that you will reach out for them one day and find yourself at home among them.
Words can't explain how much I love you, little boy, and I promise to let you know it every single day of your life. I know I tell you all the time now, but I can't wait to express it to you just by looking into your eyes. I bet they will look like your father's eyes, I hope they are, they speak so well for him, and I hope that you have that trait as well. Everyone is so anxious to meet you; you are loved so much already, especially by Mommy and Daddy. We've been doing our best to get our house ready for you, little Victor, to make your first home as warm and comforting as possible. We've painted your bedroom blue like the sky, and your bathroom is green like new grass, I hope you like it. Gigi has made everything for you, and we can just imagine tucking you in with your baby blanket that you carry with you all day long because it was a loving gift from your grandmother and it smells like her sweet perfume and reminds you of her house with all the sweets you can eat and all the puppies you can imagine to play with. Even Gigi's husband Poppy Mark can't wait to meet you! He's building you a rocking horse and a toy chest that Ma will paint for you. Your Uncle Matt is so anxious to meet you he wants Mommy to call him as soon as we know you're ready to come out! He's going to fly all the way from North Carolina to Pennsylvania at the drop of a hat because he can't wait to see his little nephew. You'll like Uncle Matt the best, he's got a lot to teach you, he was quite the mischevious little boy when we were growing up. He's in the army right now, but maybe he'll change his mind about resigning when he meets you. Let's hope! Uncle Geoff will come up to meet you, too. He's stationed in Georgia right now, but he'll be up to meet you soon. Your cousins all can't wait to meet the new baby either! You will be the youngest, for now, but that's ok! They'll love you no matter what!
With every kick and movement you make, you remind me of how simple life is, and how amazing it can be. I love you out of this world, more than the amount of stars in the sky and that ever were. You are my sunshine, my heart, and everything that I am made of. I can't wait to hold you, little boy, and I can't wait to see the tears of happiness run down your daddy's face when he holds you for the first time. We love you so much, Victor. I wish I could keep you safe inside of me forever; I'll do my best to keep you safe in this world, its a lot bigger than we are, but I think we'll manage. Be a good boy while we anticipate your arrival, my little love. Dream sweetly, baby boy, and know that tomorrow you'll have grown one day stronger than the day before, and that's how much stronger our love grows for you every day.
Patiently waiting to meet you,
Mommy