So I guess it's my turn...
I'm Delia and my husband Kevin and we've been married for a little over a year. When we were just six months away from our wedding we found out that we were preggers. Total surprise to say the least!!! I had a normal healthy pregnancy all the while my little girl had developed a heart defect. She was born just one day pased my due date with a congenital heart defect called TGA (Transposition of the Great Artieris) . She died just three hours after being born.
We started trying as soon as the dr said it was o.k. He asked us to wait a year (emotionally), but physically he would only ask me to wait for six months. That was still too long for me to wait, so he said that he wanted to see me in three months and we'd re-evaluate our situation. I think he wanted to make sure that we were ready. And we were...so in Jan we officially started ttc. I'm now on my third round of Clomid, my first on 100 mg. I've had only one semi-normal cycle which was my very fist one which I think was actually anovulatory. I had an lp defect...on the cycles that I did ovulate!
We desperately want a child. I feel like I worked so hard for something then didn't get to reap the benefits. I feel incomplete...I carried a baby to full-term, was in labor for close to three days and delivered my baby. In every essence of the word I am a mother, but yet I don't have a baby to show for it. I'm a babyless mother!!!
Sorry to vent like this...I just got into my story and let loose!!! Thanks for listening, if you're still here!!!
Del