When I got married with my husband, we quickly had one kid, but we decided to wait for the second child. When I was finally pregnant with my second child after 5 years, I was going to this clinic near my house. At the clinic, I always saw different doctors and always felt that all my questions were never answered. The pregnancy was so different from my first pregnancy, yet the doctors would say that all pregnancies are different. Since I heard that before, I would feel a little more at ease. But then I started feeling really sick and would be in the ER a lot with pains. Every time I was sent home telling me that I was ok. Then one day I went to the ER with so much pain and bleeding. At the ER the nurse kept asking me why I was so nervous and if I had smoked or drank something.. Now I have never smoked in life and would never drink during a pregnancy. So I was pissed off. She kept asking me why I was so nervous. I was 5 months pregnant, in a lot of pain and bleeding and she was asking me why I was nervous? I was furious, so I signed myself out of the hospital. The next day I went to see another doctor from another hospital. This doctor did test on me and discovered that (1) I was diabetic and my sugar levels were so high it was affecting my pregnancy and (2) he also saw that I had pre-eclampsia which ended in the HELLP syndrome. He told me I was really sick and he admitted me to the hospital. Not even 6 months and they had to do an emergency c-section and delivered my baby. My baby was born premature and with hole on her back. I became so sick, they needed to give me blood and keep me sedated so that I could be ok. My new doctor told me that if I would've done to him or another doctor fromt he beginning when my problems started, they could've kept the baby inside longer. My baby had surgery after 2 months of being born. My doctor also said I couldn't have no more babies and that I should get surgery to tie my tubes. But right after my baby was born my mother in law passed away.. A few months later my dad also died. Only 8 months after giving birth I went to see my doctor to schedule the surgery, when he told me I was pregnant again. He told me it was my decision, but he said it was best for me to aborted it. He said I had little chance of surviving another pregnancy. He said both me and my baby could die. I decided (learning from previosu pregnancy) to get a second opinion. The new doctor gave me hope and said she could work with me from the beginning of the pregnancy to make it work. And 9 months later, with my diabetes in control but no other problems, my youngest one was born through a schedule c-section. My my middle baby is almost 5 and with no signs that she ever went through surgery or anything and my youngest 3 years old are doing great. I feel so privilege in life for having three beautiful angels and now I know is not the doctors who decide your fate, but God is the one who has the last word.