Weight Gain is my enemy, and Pregnancy makes this battle SO HARD to resist. It's like I'm willingly torturing myself, even though I know that's not the case. This is the Second pregnancy I've carried this far (32ish weeks) and so far my weight is more so in control than last time, but I also weighed more when I started this one.
I am a "REFORMED (ha) anorexic and haven't starved or done any inappropriate measures to control my weight in years, but the mentality of staying within my healthy weight range of 120-140 is prevelant in all I do.
Once I got pregnant this time, I reminded myself that I was going to gain weight. I had gained 70 pounds during preg. 1 and VOWED not to go so overboard this time. I did lose it all within 3-4 months after he was born, though. So when I started this one (25 pounds heavier than when I get preg with DS) I tried to be careful without being crazy. I did well. Then for no apparent reason I gained 20 pounds in 2 months. then this last month I gained 6. that's my 30 with the 4 pounds I'd gained leading up to that BIG GAIN. I still have the 2 top-gaining months to go. I'm sickened by the thought of where I might end up on the scale, but determined to lose it all after, like I did before. It'll be hard work (Thank goodness for the benefits of BF'ing !!!) and diligence, but I know if I want it, I will do it.
my thighs are so big.
it's really gross.