I'm new here but I don't want to be here.

• 10-03-2009 6:03 AM

  Stacey3522905 Joined on 09-03-2009 St. Thomas ON Canada Posts 32

  I'm new here but I don't want to be here. Reply Contact I lost my little bean last night and I can't stop crying. The Dr thinks that I was able to pass the baby through so I won't have to get a D&C. Something to be thankful about I guess. I had only very minor bleeding and no cramping so I didn't think anything was wrong. But DH thought I should go and get it checked out. And when I was Iin the ER the bleeding increased a lot, but I still wasn't cramping. They did an US and the baby only measured about 6 weeks. I was supposed to be in week 9. And my betas were at just over 9000. I had to use the washroom when I felt something really strange. I passed a clot and tissue that was bigger than my hand. This happened twice more at the hospital and twice at home. I don;t think there is anything left inside now. But I go back on Monday for another US and to get my betas tested. What an awful experience. Thanks for letting me vent.

• 10-03-2009 7:00 AM

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  Sarah~Jonathon~Ty Joined on 12-29-2004 Posts 63

  Re: I'm new here but I don't want to be here. Reply Contact I replied in the May board.. as I was part of that board. I'm so sorry to hear what happened. I know how you feel. I started my m/c on 9/27, and bled for 2 days. then it went away, then 3 days later it came back horrible and now I am going to have a d&c on Wed, unless all this stops on it's own. Again I am so sorry to hear this happened to you, just take one day at a time, even minute by minute. It's hard and we all understand what your going through. *hugs*

• 10-04-2009 11:50 AM

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  Amber05 Joined on 05-13-2004 South Dakota, Lorena-4, Everett-3, 3 Angel Babies Posts 185

  Re: I'm new here but I don't want to be here. Reply Contact I am so sorry. I was on the may board as well (though only for a few days). Take it 1 day at a time. With my first m/c almost a year ago now, I had 1 (tiny) spot of bright red when I wiped. Called dr. to see what they wanted me to do. Went in for an u/s the next morning, though no one thought anything was wrong, and there was no heartbeat. I was supposed to be 9w. I opted for a natural m/c and passed everything at home 2 weeks later. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. Feel free to vent here all you want. It really makes a difference to tell someone how you're feeling. (((HUGS)))