hi there,
I'm pregnant again. I would tell you which number this is but to be honest i've lost count, all i can say is i've got two amazing children who made it. Ava is now 2 and little Zachary is 9months.
Judging by the ultrasounds i'm 8weeks pregnant, we've had some scares already with bleeding, cramping, and baby having funny heartbeat. My body doesn't like having babies so trys to miscarry and if that doesn't work just won't go into labour. Ava was emergency induced a week early due to my water gradually leaking and leaving her open for infection, and Zaccy was induced 5days late as he stopped moving completely for a few days and his heartbeat was difficult to trace. both pregnancies had tough times, Ava lost her twin and had to be monitored almost continuously, and Zaccy was just a lot of little complications.
What i want help from you ladies is about my wanting to have this baby induced early. I can't begin to tell you how scary and draining it is towards the end of my pregnancies. I basically live at the hospital. It's been proven my body won't go into labour by its self and i just want the peace of mind that this baby will be safe. It's due 3rd January next year and the problem i have is an early induction will bring the birth over the most chaotic time of year, christmas and new years! Our hospital runs on a skeleton crew over this period and they are fobbing me off with 'lets see how this pregnancy goes'. I need this baby induced early, i can't cope with the strain of worrying like i have the past two times, i just can't do it. Even if this pregnancy has no more problems i garantee somethings will go wrong later, apart from anything i just wont go into labour until they induce me.
I know this may sound selfish but if you've ever been in a similar situation you can relate to what i'm saying. I really, honestly dont want to have to go through it again, i NEED them to induce me early if not for the baby then for me. My husband never shows fear and just says tell the doctors what you want, it's your body and our baby not theirs. But that doesn't really help as doctors don't really listen to that.
If you have any thoughts, information or anything please get in touch, i just really need someone to hear my fears.
Thank you for reading whats turned out to be a mini essay. Take care. H x x x