Hi! It sounds like you're having a difficult time right now. My son is 9 months old, and I know juggling your baby with relationships, work, and family life can be hard. It sounds like you should talk to your doctor. Postpartum depression doesn't always happen right after the baby is born. It can make an appearance any time, even after your baby turns one year. If you are feeling like you want to cut yourself, you should really get in touch with a doctor or psychiatrist. I know you want the best for your baby, and you should seek help for yourself so you can be an even better mother to her. A doctor will be able to help you figure out what's going on and help you manage. Hope this helps!