My husband thinks I'm jealous and paranoid, and it's true, I am. But not without reason! I don't know what to do...I don't trust him anymore. He had many, many sexual experiences before we wre married, is pretty liberal about sex, and doesn't care what religion says about it. He says "your sex life is your own business- no one else's" I agree, but I didn't think he excluded me! I'll explain. I do have jealousy issues that I'm working on-it's true and here's why:
When we were married he still felt for a lost love, someone who broke his heart, but he spoke about her fairly often, asked if needed in the next life- if I would accept her as another wife! Another ex he has is very beautiful and he often told me so. They're friends and that's fine, except that he lied about visiting with her. I know because I accidentally saw a text and then confronted him about it. The only problem is that he never thought what he did was wrong! Since then, I've tried to give him his privacy I really have, but when I suspect something, I've read his text messages and he never fails to give me something juicy! I think he's had oral sex with at least one woman since we've been married, but there's this other (another ex...) who he's always trying to get together with. She teases with texts messages but as far as I can tell has never agreed to meet him.
I don't know what to do, he'll be so mad if I tell him I've read his texts once in awhile, but the real issue is that I don't think he sees a problem with infidelity (another example- the only he can think to spice up our sex life is to invite another girl!). We haven't had sex in almost a year (because I was pregnant and he refused as soon as we found out). I can't trust him anymore, and sometimes am filled with HATE! The worst part is--I don't thnk he has a clue that I feel this way. I don't know what to do. If it wasn't for the fact that we have two kids (1.5 yrs and 3 months) I probably would have left.
Anyone with advice? I'm beside myself and very alone.