I just turned 44 a couple of weeks ago. I was pregnant, but just lost the baby at 8 wks. I had a d&c yesterday. Feeling pretty good considering. I'm a little traumatized but moving on. What else can I do? I'm not getting any younger. So, I don't really have time to wallow in it. We plan on ttc as soon as af shows up. God willing by the middle of December. I'm just hoping that I'll see some of you 'older' gals along the way. Although the gals on the birth boards are all good women who are kind and generous and have good advice and all, they are all so much younger. Seems like just yesterday I was 23 and having my first baby. I have three now. I had my first dd when I was 23 from a previous relationship, I had my second dd, she's 11 now. Then I had another pregnancy but lost our little boy when I was days shy of 19 wks (unexplained...the baby wasn't growing like he should have but they couldn't find any reason as to why). We were pretty traumatized by that one and decided to wait a couple of years. Those couple of years turned into many years and then I said..ya know, not getting any younger here..so we started ttc in Nov of 2006. No success until Feb of 2007, but m/c that one at 5 wks. We started ttc again after the first af and we had a successful pregnancy. Gave birth to my ds in Jan of 2008. It's amazing how quickly time flew by and then we started ttc again in June of this year. I had my first bfp in Sept but as mentioned, just lost this one. So, not wanting to end my child bearing years this way, we are going to start ttc again after my first af. God willing I will conceive fairly quickly and this one will be healthy and we'll be having a new baby in the fall of next year. I hope to meet some of you guys on the birth boards. I don't know that I'll start posting on the ttc board just yet; maybe lurk for a bit. I think we aren't going to ttc beyond Feb, maybe March at the latest and then it's the end of the road for us. I'll just have to except that we aren't meant to have more than three. But, God willing we will have this last one and they will be healthy and have no issues.